I've had several people say things to me when I talk about life & scheduling & baby planning & things like that - but they'll say, "Oh, you're a first time mom. Just wait until the 2nd one. You won't be like this." I find it interesting because I've also recently heard, "oh, just wait until you're in labor. You'll get the medication" or "just wait till you've changed a few of those cloth diapers, you'll use disposables" and neither of those things happened. So now, with these "first time mom" comments, I don't know how to respond. Should I say, "uh, thanks??" I'm not sure. Because the truth is, maybe I'm needing to be in control and particular and worried about germs and sickness and things like that because I'm a first time mom - and maybe I'm doing all those things because I'm CAMERON and it's just what I do.I was pretty particular before Isis arrived. I've always kinda wanted things a certain way and I've always been a bit of a perfectionist and I've always been an over-achiever. I've always washed my hands like 20 times a day. I've always been concerned about germs or sickness when people were around me. I've always done life on a schedule. I've always made lists. I've always needed to be in control. Now, granted, some of these things are my life issues that I need to learn to let go of to a certain extent, but none of them have just suddenly arrived because Isis is here. It seems to me more like I've extended that part of my personality to include the baby stuff - for better or for worse.
So maybe I'm a first time mom & I'm particular. And maybe I'm just Cameron. I guess only time will tell.
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You're Cameron and (at the risk of sounding Oprah-y) you are the best you. Not some catty other person who thinks they have it figured out.